this upsets me, like it hurts me, it saddens me No matter how low your self esteem is, dont resort to this it’ll get better. You really have to just learn how to love yourself
who cares if your 200 pounds or if you have acne, or if you have frizzy hair lol…who cares dude, you’re still beautiful, if you’re beautiful on the inside. In 6th grade I was wearing boy hoodies, my hair tied back, I had acne, I wasnt very happy with myself at all, I remember we went to Disneyworld and we had tickets for a waterpark and an extra day and I told my dad I didnt want to go, because I was self concious about my body, I WAS LIKE 10 YEARS OLD. I was like 10 years old and I missed out going to a disneyworld water park…you know how bad I regret just going, Like till this day Im like “I should have gone, I was 10” Its depressing to me that I know theres other girls regardless if you’re 12, or 18 that still feel like that. Dont let that hold you back, ever, take chances in life regardless of your looks, everyone gets rejected…. everyone goes trough feeling not good enough or feeling not pretty. Love yourself and take chances, This is very sincere, this message actually really impacted me….and it hurt me that people actually feel like this and resort to this. 

The Weekend

It was a really great weekend, my boyfriend Ruben came to visit me and it was wonderful. We actually stayed home most of the weekend (parent supervision so chill out) but he also came with some people who were helping out with the church carnival thingy and my parents know them so they offered them the house so they can stay at

So it was like 5 people and it was real cool, I know Libby and she was part of them and I met the other girl who they call Yoshi and she was real cool, and well bani is like a brother to me and he came too and Abi is well hes cool lol hes like banis wingman helper person but yeah

We watched movies ^____^ ate pizza , watched cartoons and at the end of Sunday we went to the church’s carnival thingy and I got a face painting, nice weekend I loved it

Some peechures now n__n

I could be really defensive

If someone asks me a question like “So do you wear contacts just because you like them, not because you need them” I right away take it offensively, even if they’re just asking a question & I know its a flaw of mine, but I’ve been trough shit that has made me that way. Before, if someone asked me a question like that I’d answer it normally, but I’ve been trough situations where the person is trying to humiliate me with questions and snide comments like that in person and in real life situations and of course on the internet, that has made me so defensive like that. I try and control it at times to not come off like such a bich, but its just one of my flaws.

Lil Kim is a damn fool.

I know everyone is going in on her, but its because the bitch doesnt stop she just gets more pathetic and more pathetic, first she comes out with black friday  and its okay okay kim we get it , you dont like nicki. But now she making a damn full mixtape dedicated to how Nicki is jocking her, so we get it you mad cause Nicki has similarities towards you, you are you and she is Nicki, you’re insecure because she getting crazy fame right now & you aint, thats how the game is. You dont see hilary duff hating on Miley and Madonna hating on Gaga, just get over it…. shit man.

I honestly like Kims music but now she just a fool, like nicki said she could have gone down as the first to do it & the queen now shes going down as a sore loser

All these fakes using my pictures dont phase me, you’re all annoying but thats it

At first It really bothered me now Im like

you can take all the pictures of me and post them on all the websites, you can have over 2,000 or more friends on facebook while using my pictures

but you’ll never be me, you’ll go to sleep in your bed with your life and its sad that you resort to the internet to try and be happy with yourself

at the end of the day Im the only ME, and you’ll never be me 

and I dont wanna come off like a bitch, im just being real.

Summer.

Im so happy about this summer, Im really looking forward to it. Even though last summer was surprisingly great, I cant wait for this one. My parents have always been strict, like my curfew is 10pm, I cant just be like “hey mom im leaving, bye” that doesnt work lol I need to tell them where im going, who im going with, is the person that going have a licesense, who is this person how did I meet them, if its all guys they start bitching at me for why its all guys, if they dont like who im going with or dont “approve” of them than forget it its over. So its pretty hard to keep them happy, so this summer ill finally be 18 and although of course im not going to be some hardcore party person because thats not even what im trying to do, ill be happy that I wont have such a load on my shoulders about being out after 10 lol. Im sure they’ll be more cool with it too, as long as im not going overboard coming home at 5 -_____- but ive never done that so yeah, and I really dont plan on it

I’ve never been picky with boyfriends, but next boyfriend I have

• You need to have good music taste
• Funny, thats a must
• Hyper, act stupid in public. It’ll make my day
• Have a car….please. It doesnt need to be bougie, just have a damn car…with gas
• Have a job, I dont care if you work at mcdonalds, just have a job or at least be trying to get one
• You have to make time for me, at least see me once a week
• Dont kiss my ass….just be real with me. If I look ugly, tell me I look ugly in that shirt
• You cant be needy as hell, I cant be on the phone for 2 hours everyday, who has time for that shit anymore
• You cant have a problem with me going out with my friends or smoking weed, If you dont do it, thats fine but you cant be objecting to me doing it
• Get along with my sister, you dont have to be friends with my friends but itd be cool if you’re cool with my sis