this upsets me, like it hurts me, it saddens me No matter how low your self esteem is, dont resort to this it’ll get better. You really have to just learn how to love yourself
who cares if your 200 pounds or if you have acne, or if you have frizzy hair lol…who cares dude, you’re still beautiful, if you’re beautiful on the inside. In 6th grade I was wearing boy hoodies, my hair tied back, I had acne, I wasnt very happy with myself at all, I remember we went to Disneyworld and we had tickets for a waterpark and an extra day and I told my dad I didnt want to go, because I was self concious about my body, I WAS LIKE 10 YEARS OLD. I was like 10 years old and I missed out going to a disneyworld water park…you know how bad I regret just going, Like till this day Im like “I should have gone, I was 10” Its depressing to me that I know theres other girls regardless if you’re 12, or 18 that still feel like that. Dont let that hold you back, ever, take chances in life regardless of your looks, everyone gets rejected…. everyone goes trough feeling not good enough or feeling not pretty. Love yourself and take chances, This is very sincere, this message actually really impacted me….and it hurt me that people actually feel like this and resort to this. 

The Weekend

It was a really great weekend, my boyfriend Ruben came to visit me and it was wonderful. We actually stayed home most of the weekend (parent supervision so chill out) but he also came with some people who were helping out with the church carnival thingy and my parents know them so they offered them the house so they can stay at

So it was like 5 people and it was real cool, I know Libby and she was part of them and I met the other girl who they call Yoshi and she was real cool, and well bani is like a brother to me and he came too and Abi is well hes cool lol hes like banis wingman helper person but yeah

We watched movies ^____^ ate pizza , watched cartoons and at the end of Sunday we went to the church’s carnival thingy and I got a face painting, nice weekend I loved it

Some peechures now n__n

I could be really defensive

If someone asks me a question like “So do you wear contacts just because you like them, not because you need them” I right away take it offensively, even if they’re just asking a question & I know its a flaw of mine, but I’ve been trough shit that has made me that way. Before, if someone asked me a question like that I’d answer it normally, but I’ve been trough situations where the person is trying to humiliate me with questions and snide comments like that in person and in real life situations and of course on the internet, that has made me so defensive like that. I try and control it at times to not come off like such a bich, but its just one of my flaws.

Lil Kim is a damn fool.

I know everyone is going in on her, but its because the bitch doesnt stop she just gets more pathetic and more pathetic, first she comes out with black friday  and its okay okay kim we get it , you dont like nicki. But now she making a damn full mixtape dedicated to how Nicki is jocking her, so we get it you mad cause Nicki has similarities towards you, you are you and she is Nicki, you’re insecure because she getting crazy fame right now & you aint, thats how the game is. You dont see hilary duff hating on Miley and Madonna hating on Gaga, just get over it…. shit man.

I honestly like Kims music but now she just a fool, like nicki said she could have gone down as the first to do it & the queen now shes going down as a sore loser

All these fakes using my pictures dont phase me, you’re all annoying but thats it

At first It really bothered me now Im like

you can take all the pictures of me and post them on all the websites, you can have over 2,000 or more friends on facebook while using my pictures

but you’ll never be me, you’ll go to sleep in your bed with your life and its sad that you resort to the internet to try and be happy with yourself

at the end of the day Im the only ME, and you’ll never be me 

and I dont wanna come off like a bitch, im just being real.

Summer.

Im so happy about this summer, Im really looking forward to it. Even though last summer was surprisingly great, I cant wait for this one. My parents have always been strict, like my curfew is 10pm, I cant just be like “hey mom im leaving, bye” that doesnt work lol I need to tell them where im going, who im going with, is the person that going have a licesense, who is this person how did I meet them, if its all guys they start bitching at me for why its all guys, if they dont like who im going with or dont “approve” of them than forget it its over. So its pretty hard to keep them happy, so this summer ill finally be 18 and although of course im not going to be some hardcore party person because thats not even what im trying to do, ill be happy that I wont have such a load on my shoulders about being out after 10 lol. Im sure they’ll be more cool with it too, as long as im not going overboard coming home at 5 -_____- but ive never done that so yeah, and I really dont plan on it

I’ve never been picky with boyfriends, but next boyfriend I have

• You need to have good music taste
• Funny, thats a must
• Hyper, act stupid in public. It’ll make my day
• Have a car….please. It doesnt need to be bougie, just have a damn car…with gas
• Have a job, I dont care if you work at mcdonalds, just have a job or at least be trying to get one
• You have to make time for me, at least see me once a week
• Dont kiss my ass….just be real with me. If I look ugly, tell me I look ugly in that shirt
• You cant be needy as hell, I cant be on the phone for 2 hours everyday, who has time for that shit anymore
• You cant have a problem with me going out with my friends or smoking weed, If you dont do it, thats fine but you cant be objecting to me doing it
• Get along with my sister, you dont have to be friends with my friends but itd be cool if you’re cool with my sis

Most girls are annoying

im including myself, we think we want a sweet good looking guy. But we really dont, we want a cute good looking asshole that will make us chase him, we get annoyed if they’re too nice and we get mad if they’re not nice enough

we probably are just not even ready for a relationship, why worry on that. Its your teenage years

this is why I have decided to be single until im older, sure i’ll like guys and have crushes and probably kiss and stuff but I dont want to get involved in the relationship part, because I know its probably not best for me right now

You don’t got to lie to kick it.

I wish some people just understood  that shit, if you have fucked 10 guys and you’re 16 years old, own up to that shit and I will respect you for being honest. If you are a slut and you can admit it, or have had a slutty past and you own up to it, power to you ! If you dont smoke or drink, gr8 ! just be real. Thats it, if you love makeup and you love wearing it than say that. I understand why people get scared to be completely honest, because they don’t want to be judged but truth is you’re always going to be judged, its better to be judged for whats real than whats fake. People now a days can tell when you’re faking and its not attractive.

Valentine’s Day in Elementary School.

I liked When you brought Valentine’s Day cards for the whole class, no one was left out. Even if you didn’t like some people in your class, you still had one for them. Nowadays, if you don’t have a Valentine or you’re single, Valentine’s Day is gonna suck. You’re gonna be surrounded by couples being all cute & shit and you won’t be receiving anything. 

 

 

FAKE!!!!!

Fake profilis. Mano tikrasis one.lt - bowhow@one.lt

Photoshop Information

This is based off my knowledge.

Photoshop is usually really pricey like $500 and up, obviously no one wants to spend that much. You can get a free trial online, adobe.com they trial is usually 30 days. After 30 days it will ask you for an activation code. It wont work unless you have the code.

okay, I have photoshop because my dad works with computers in a way, and he was using photoshop since the 90’s when Photoshop 7 was like the ooh la la, my sister used it and than I started using it around 9 years old.

My dad always had the CD’s around, I dont think he ever bought them, luckily I think his boss or one of his friends who knows hacks gave him the CD. Yes there is hacks, I have photoshop cs 4 right now on my macbook, my friend installed it for free along with all the other adobe programs like premier pro, dreamweaver, illustrator, etc. 

my advice would be, try and find someone that can install it for free, and offer to pay them just as a tip type of thing.

Some girls need to realize that not every person who dislikes them is jealous.

Yes,  there is people who wont like you or hate you and try to put you down because they’re simply jealous . They’ll say mean things about you and judge you, when you haven’t done anything to them, that is usually jealousy or because they have heard things from people and are judging you without knowing you or trying to get to know you.

but theres also people who might dislike you because they have been around you and they just dont really like your personality and the way you are, maybe you said some things or did some things to them or there family/friends and thats why they dont like you, maybe you do things that annoy them like copy people or put people down and they’ve seen it and witnessed it and just dont want to be around you. Maybe they’ve seen that you cause a lot of drama with other people they know like friends/family and thats a reason why they dont want to be around you. Theres reasons why people dont like people sometimes, its not always jealousy.

don’t be ignorant

Never really been the type to

Try and always show off my body. I just dont find it necessary I guess, its not that Im not comfortable with myself or anything its just I dont really feel the want or need. I could be sexy sometimes and I am sometimes but I dont always feel the need to parade it. Anyways, its cool in a way knowing that you dont always need to be showing off your body like almost on a daily just to get some type of attention. 

Your sexual orientation shouldn’t be hype.

If you’re bisexual than be it because its true
if you’re gay or lesbian be it because its true
if you’re hetrosexual again, be it because its true

Nothing is more annoying than someone faking something
just to get attention or because its the “cool” thing. I knew
so many girls in my high school that would makeout with a girl
and all of a sudden call themselves bisexual and im sorry but
to me thats not being bisexual, and other girls who would do it
just when guys are around for their attention.

Im straight and thats that, and I’ve had guys ask me
if I’d ever have a threesome with another girl
and I’ll straight up be like “No, Im not comfortable with it, im straight”
when I could just front and go along with it to get attention and to
look “hot” or w.e but I’m not going to fake who I am.

and this isnt going for people who are really
homosexual or bisexual, its going for the people who
do it simply for attention or other reasons that aren’t legit

What you post on the internet can come back to haunt you.

If you are underage and you are posting pictures of your body parts, later these pictures can come back to haunt you, simple as that. If you’re one of the people who wouldnt care if your parents saw a picture of you naked or something, than do whatever you want, you know what just do whatever you want regardless, but be able to accept the consequences. Im saying this from experience, you need to be real careful with what pictures you post, because anyone anyone can take those pictures and do whatever they want to them or send them to whoever they want. I say “underage” because when you’re underage you’re still in highschool, you probably are living with your parents and you need to just be more careful with what you do and anyways. And if you’re under 18 I think In certain states you can get in trouble with the law for it. So, just think before you act 

I don’t know why, too much of a pretty boy doesn’t attract me.

I like boys with messy hair, and beanies, jeans that fit normal.
tshirts with ketchup stains on them. I mean obviously, you know
I want him to smell normal and be clean but the over the top
pretty boys are just not that attractive to me

I wouldn’t change for a boyfriend.

In looks and stuff. My boyfriend knows I am girly girl, he knows my hair will almost always be done, he knows I am a makeup freak, he knows I love the color pink, clothes and I might carry my body spray or perfume with me, he knows I love my reality t.v dramas, he really dislikes nick minaj & I love her. He knows these things, so if one day he was like “change” i’d be like “no, this doesn’t affect my personality or our relationship its something just about me and you met me like this” which is the truth. Obviously, he’s seen me without makeup, he’s hanged out with me when im just in pj’s and my hair is up but he knows how I am. I don’t get it when girls will change parts of themselves that don’t affect there relationship, like all of a sudden they hate a certain type of music or they cut there hair a certain way… I don’t know, its just not my thing to change who I am

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